(O.k. so i have been trying FOREVER to publish this post. I first wrote it about a month or more ago. But i was having the hardest time downloading the video on anything. So, I finally decided to youtube it, and they deleted the audio!! I am frustrated! Mainly because i don't know a single thing about computers and that is all our world is coming to :) So, here is the video, without sound. The 2 songs that play to it are, "Untitled Hymn(Come to Jesus)" by Chris Rice, and then followed by "If you only knew" by Randy Travis. I linked the video, and then each song. So if you would like to go through the work of adding the audio while the video is playing, you can click on each song simultaniously while you have the video up. Sorry, it's the best i could do, until i can actually get someone that knows what they are doing, to help me :) Thanks for remembering my little boy with me.... Here is the original post....)

So i was listening to the radio this morning, when an all-to-familiar song came on. I realized that it was one of the songs that we used on a video we put together to play at Josiah's funeral. It's not a widely played song, which is why i haven't thought about the video for a while. I decided that this is a day that I needed to pull it out and watch it again. I sat there watching the video, with Caleb beside me, and didn't expect to get hit with such pain that i did. I still miss my little boy so much, and it still feels like it just happened yesterday. Even 2 years later, i still can't come to the conclusion of why it happened, but only that i still trust my Savior entirely through it all. He is perfect and merciful, and who am I to judge God, but His creation? I love the Lord with my entire life and i will try to worship Him wholly until I go to be with Him.

So i just wanted to post this video, to share with you all because I want little Josiah to be remembered. I don't want him to be another forgotten head stone in the cemetary. This little boy radically changed our lives by helping us come to the decision that there is more to this life for our family than where we were. Thus leading us to where we are now. I love him and miss him, and i just want to glorify God through his little life. I definately don't want all of what we went through, to be for nothing. So i write this..., to praise God. Praise Him for drawing me to Him, for giving us another little blessing, for still having sweet little Caleb, for my wonderful husband, and just for every good thing He has ever given me. Even before i came to him. Thank you Father.

The video....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2hd6NpssO00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e_4g8_e16dc

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